Spoiling Suprises

Lady Catherine had a conversation with Lizzy. She informed her that I was planning on asking her to marry me. This is very upsetting. I wanted it to be a suprise. Lady Catherine is so rude. She is constanlty offending everyone. She is so rude to Lizzy. That really makes me mad.

Paying off Whickam

When Lydia and Whickam ran off together Lizzy became very worried. She was worried that Whickam would not marry her sister because they do not have very much money. If he does not marry Lydia, it will bring embarrasment to their family. I paid Whickam to marry Lydia. i did this because I hated seeing Lizzy so sad.

Bingley and Jane

I believe that Bingley and Jane are back together. I feel horrible for the things i did. I should have never split them up. I hope that they can both find the places in their hearts and forgive me for my actions. Meanwhile, Lizzy and I are doing very well. I love her so much.

In Love

I love Elizabeth. She lights up my world. Lady Catherine was very rude to her. This insulted me a lot. She called her poor. She told her to play on the servants piano. Elizabeth does not that have that much money and she said she is to poor to play on the grand piano.

Nervous Wreck

Elizabeth has been a very nervous girl because of her sisters disappearance with Wickham. Elizabeth is nervous because if Whickam does not marry her sister Lydia then that will embarrass her whole family and bring shame to them. Mr. Gardiner repeatedly kept telling Elizabeth that Wickam will marry Lydia because she does not want to ruin his career or reputation. Mr. Bennet has gone to London in search of the two. Lydia left a letter for Colonel Foster's wife that she can not wait to be Lydia Whickam.

Feeling Guilty

As soon as I found out the news of Lydia's disappearance with Whickam I immediately started to blame myself for this. Elizabeth also blames herself for this. Unfortunately as soon as Elizabeth found out the bad news she had to leave immediately with the Gardiners. Elizabeth returned home with the Gardiner's to their home and in Longbourn. Elizabeth repeatedly kept apologizing to me for having to leave so abruptly.

Whickam and Lydia run away

So I've recently found out that Wickham and Lydia have run off to get married. Mr. Gardiner and Mr. Bennet have left to go search for them. I do not know how I feel about this because I am not very fond of Whickam. Elizabeth seems to be very ashamed that Lydia would run off to get married to Whickam when she's only 16 years old. Her leaving the country to go get married at such a young age brings up many questions for me. Sometimes I wonder if she could be pregnant.

Defending Elizabeth

When Elizabeth left, Miss Bingley was saying very rude things about her. Thiss offended me a lot. She told me that i used to think Elizabeth was "rather pretty". I was ver mad when she said this. I replied to her comment by saying, “one of the handsomest women of my acquaintance.”

Visiting Elizabeth

I went to visit Elizabeth at the inn with my sister and Mr. Bingley. We were there for a short time. When we left we invite Elizabeth and the Gardiners over for dinner. The next day Elizabeth and Mrs. gardiner came over to see my sister. When Miss Bingley saw Elizabeth she was very rude. Elizabeth played it off very well.

Being Polite

When i saw Elizabeth, i decided that i should be nice. I have been very rude to her. She was really embarrassed that she was in Pemberely. She kept telling me that she did not think that i would be here. I informed her my sister was coming to stay with me. I also asked her if she would like to meet her. She said that she would like to.

Seeing Elizabeth In Pemberley

I returned back to Pimberley. I saw Elizabeth on a walk and I decided to join her. She looked stunning and I was very polite. She told me that the only reason she was there was because she thought that I would not be there. I informed her that I returned to get my house ready for the Bingleys and my sister to stay.

My Letter

I was on a walk when all  of the sudden, I ran into Elizabeth. It was very unexpected, but I had a letter that I wanted to give to her. In this letter I explained how I encouraged Bingley to leave Neverfield Park. I also said that I did not want Mr. Bingley to marry into her family. I was scared when I gave her the letter because I did not know what her reaction would be.

#Nerves

Pursuing Elizabeth

I do not want to love Elizabeth, but I just can't help it. I have been thinking about her nonstop and I am thinking of every way that i can see her. I went to Hunsford the day after I arrived at Rosings just so I could see her. When she was making fun of me, I tried to play it off and make a connection with her. Also, I am often going to Parsonage just to see her.

#lovesucks

Visiting Elizabeth At Parsonage

When I arrived at Parsonage, I informed Elizabeth that i would not be spending much time at Netherfield Park in the future. After i told her about this, it made our conversation very awkward. Charlotte stated that i was in love with Elizabeth because I got there in such a weird way.  The next few days after i kept going back. I could not stop thinking about her and I was trying to find every excuse to see her.

Visiting My Aunt

Today Colonel Fitzwilliam and I traveled to Rosings to  visit our aunt. It was a wonderful trip and i had such a great time. While we were enjoying our meal, Elizabeth entertained us with her playing of the pianoforte. She began to make fun of me. She was telling Colonel Fitzwilliam that my behavior was bad at the Meryton ball. She informed him that I refused to dance with her.